Life As A Status Personnel

Well, well what do you know? I tio Excuse RMJ and L/L for this week! It was due to the leg pain I was experiencing for the last two weeks. Long story, but that day I took some painkillers to ease the pain but what did you know my body had a strong reaction to it and resulted in me feeling super dizzy and sleepy afterwards. So I went to MO, hoping just to get some rest in the sick bay. But little did I know, the doctor gave me FIVE DAYS ex and I was like wad the...cos' I felt I didn't really need that much time to rest and worst it meant I would be missing freaking IPPT and route march meaning RT. RT!!! Damn it la...

So as things went on, this week turned out to be quite fun actually. To sum it up basically, having the STATUS tag of EX RMJ + L/L combo means you are like literally god la. It's like some super VIP priviledge card can? No need double, can slowly take your time, excused from all the PT and other stuff. However, the most memorable thing was getting to ride the safety rover while the rest of the company was doing route march. Damn shiok la, the sir was like calling one volunteer then I just cheong without knowing volunteer for what...so when he told me my job was to set up water point so I had to accompany him in the rover to rocky hill camp I was thinking "Yea, slack man"! It's fun when you are in the rover, just chilling with the wind towards you and enjoying the ride while looking at the guys march.

Freak, I shouldn't get too carried away with posting too much military stuff.

A lot of fun things happened whis week too, but if I told you guys, I'd have to kill you, so forget bout' it.

My blogging skills and language is seriously deteriorating. Feel like a caveman now...

Next friday is REALITY CHECK TIME! For the uninitiated, it's 'A' Level Results Day! No, I'm not excited about it at all. In fact I'm starting to dread it. My wish is still unchanged. To get into local uni with course of my choice is good enough. Don't feel like saying too much bout' this. Have I done enough this time? Let's hope so.

Oh yea...my fitness. This week is quite surprising, I know I said my aim was to slim down, but as days passed I slowly felt I was gaining weight AGAIN. Going to 70kg! But there was no access to any weighing machine so I couldn't be sure. The only rough estimate, which I thought was quite accurate, was the fact that my pants felt MUCH tighter than before. Seriously that was quite unnerving man. But surprise surprise, checked my weight just now and conversely, I lost 1kg (to 64kg)! Only god knows what happened. Maybe cos' I stuck to normal portions again? Maybe RTRT burned a hell lot of fats? KNN I was on STATUS this week and I didn't do anything at all and just ate ate ate sleep sleep sleep and I lost 1kg LOL. Laugh Out Loud seriously.

Next IPPT will be aiming for GOLD. I know I can. 2.4km 10flat can reach 9.44 de. Chin up one more can le. Shuttle and sit up no need say. Only my freaking SBJ. I have to push harder. Ahh...the immense priviledges of attaining IPPT GOLD...

...It's already going to week 5 le. Really really fast. POP is only 5 more weeks, on 8 April. However, the real test starts now. With Range, and Field camp the following week. Let's focus, Lab. You've always preached this, now it's your time to ask yourself: "How much do you want it?"

TARGET FOR NEXT WEEK

• AT LEAST MARKSMAN ON WED
• NO MORE INJURIES
• CUT MORE WEIGHT
• RETURN TO TIP TOP CONDITION PHYSICALLY
• NO RT
• IMPROVE RELATIONSHIP WITH MY PEERS
• SHOW SOME LEADERSHIP
  
• SBJ TO IMPROVE AND SELF TRAIN DURING OTOT
• CHIN UPS HIT 11
  

And hopefully, I attain satisfactory results for 'A's.

I CAN DO IT I CAN DO IT I CAN DO IT I CAN DO IT.

Uhhh...nothing else to blog...time to end.

QOTD: If you don't mind, It don't matter.

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My Precious Bookouts!!!

This weekend's book out is really short, I was out ytd night and have to go in later again. Yes, it sucks, but since I can't fight the law, why not just abide by it and better yet, make full use of the short and precious time?

Ok, so this week was quite packed with A LOT of physical activities. (Seems like I'm redoing my weekly reflections for my army elearning blog =/) Been doing lots of runs, SOC, PT, stuff like that. And there was the rifle proficiency test too. Quite shack, cos' of the lack of sleep but still can take it. But F*** I kena bad cases of muscle pull and aches all over my legs which is really very demoralising. The worst is I'm having the actual IPPT on tues so by hook or by crook I have to find a way to heal the pain before that.

Overcame ONE of my three greatest fears in BMTC; the Jacob's ladder. Wow. True as they said, it was really quite scary at first. Particularly when you're at the top and trying to step over. But I learnt the trick was just to cheong and don't stop cos' the momentum will keep you steady and make it easier to walk down. However, it really proved to be the worst station for some, as more casualties started to pile on that station. I saw with my own eyes one of my bunkmates hit his shin when coming down as he was too kan cheong and had to go MO.

Oh ya, yours truly freaking gained weight again this week. NOW I know why people can turn fatter when they go BMT! The food portions is so big, and you eat like 3 meals per day. WTF. I think we consume like 3000 kcals per day lor. That's twice of my normal caloric intake. And even the tough training and hectic schedule doesn't burn enough calories to accustom to the calorie intake. Srsly it's freaking retarded la. I hate dis. Go army gain weight. Next week I'm gonna attempt to eat less than usual, meaning less "jia fan" (add rice), less sweet drinks, etc. If not I'll gonna go to 70kg before I know it.

And also, just want to say that my bunk got some wierd wierd stuff. Does Tekong's reputation precede itself? I would have to say no. I kinda believe there are some stuff there, maybe? I don't really noe. Just some examples, I said before my buddy's cupboard occasionally produces solid and forceful rumbling noises inside. We all thought it's the wind. Maybe, maybe not. Anyway, I was rushing to bunk to get stuff for washup when suddenly the commander ordered a heads out. As most of my section mates weren't up yet, only a few of us were there. Most rushed out immediately. I was still locking my cupboard, when suddenly for apparently no reason at all, my buddy's cupboard, which was just like 2 metres infront of me, internally shook and produced that freaking rumbling sound again! This time I really chua tio and worst I was the last guy in the bunk so I sprinted my ass out, even forgetting to bring my BSB with me. What the shit happened? I don't know. Another wierd incident happened to one of my section mates. Everytime when we returned to bunk, his cupboard lock would have been unlocked, even when he swore he locked it and checked thoroughly before. And this happened three times, all in the same day! Like wtf? And I think this happened to my cupboard once also. So begs the question, did we really forget to lock our cupboards, (which we were surely we did) or did something else unlock it for us? FYI, the tricky lock combi could only be known by ourselves, so nobody else would have been able to unlock it.

But heck it la. Doesn't really bother us, I mean there's worst things for now in BMT to be concerned about so, just take it as part and parcel of army life lor.

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My song! My song! 90% complete, but still, there's people in the house, so I can't record it. Damn it really wanted to showcase it but...ARGH.

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Gotta book in tonight, left a few hours, so must end soon. I've overcome the emoness le, and now I'm contented. Look at things positively, in BMT, they let you eat, sleep, train you, shelter you, provide medical coverage ALL FREE. And better yet they PAY $420 monthly to do this stuff. And the many experiences you'll gain. It's like a free character shaping up course or something la!

For all you people feeling EMO out there, let me share a few songs to empatize with you and make you feel better. Throughout the years, these have been my "BIG FOUR" of English Emo songs. Must listen to all four at one go then shiok...

1) "Here Without You" by Three Doors Down


2) "The Reason" by Hoobastank


3) "What Hurts The Most" by Rascal Flatts


4) "How To Save A Life" by The Fray


I think I seriously got a very very good coy. Cougar company. One of the most respected and accomplished coy in BMTC. We were priviledged enough to have a superb and charismatic OC and also the BEST BMTC Field Instructor. Who is he? Singapore's ONLY professional boxer Mohd Nor Rizan. Google him! Still can't believe we have such a Zai FI. It's kinda of surreal to speak to him face to face and know that he has gone through all these professional matches and stuff. Wah seh, his body damn fit and lean la. The whole company always call him, "World Champ"! Other recruits greet their instructor, "Good morning FI", but for Cougar, it's "Good morning WORLD CHAMP"!

...I shall take my leave now, guys. Gonna be another tough week, but looking forward to Friday Bookout!

QOTD:
ALL YOU NEED, IS JUST A LITTLE PUSH!
-Mohd Nor Rizan

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Back to School

Yes, back to the school of Basic Military Training. It's damn rushed today, I basically did two days' activity all in one frigging afternoon. Shopping, eat, grocery, run, blog, song, touch up uniform, pack army stuff, use laptop all from morning till now. I damn shag now and I'm only left around 1 hours plus before book in. Naturally I feel damn grouchy and pissed. Esp just now I kena a fking painful stitch that stopped me from completing my 2.4km run. And I have absolutely no privacy and peace just before booking in. And my damn spaghetti wasn't ready today.

I have nothing more to say, my song is 90% complete but under circumstances I can't record today, so screw that.

Suddenly, I feel that going back to Tekong is kinda reliving. You see, back there you don't have to have a mind of your own, just be like a dog and listen to instructions. Ahh...the priviliedges of being a recruit. No important responsibilites other than keeping yourself from doing unlawful stuff. So carefree...

What? I'm actually anticipating the return to Tekong?

This proves it, I'm really going mad now.

See you soon...

QOTD: When the going gets tough, the tough gets going.

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March Forth

Thanks for all the encouragement guys. It's things like these that really spur you to push on even harder. Today was from one perspective, another wasted day. But, really if I look at it from another angle, I guess a day spent doing nothing and without plans is essential to keep my life unpredictable and lively (in a way) as opposed to a life that is constantly planned and rigid. Sometimes, we should just let nature take is course, so to speak.

This Tiger year is definitely not for me man. So far I've been losing quite a large chunk of money due to the festive gambling. Come on, what did I expect? The Horse is a natural prey to the Tiger, so, it's only normal this year's CNY sucks for me, ha.

To uplift my mood, I've decided to bring out some super catchy riffs into my blog. Sometimes, a riff can be so powerful and melodic that it just makes you feel good man! So without further ado, let me intro you guys my top 6 favourite riffs! (As of now)

Lab's Top 6 Favourite Riffs

1) "Alone" by Goatmoon

(0:16 to 0:43)
I like this riff man! It's my most recent hoot also! It has everything lor...super catchy, clear, energetic, spontaneous yet exudes out such a naughty and punky feeling. Not the typical black metal riff, actually leaning more to the viking style. Not doubt, one of the most catchy ones I've heard from my 4 years of metal-listening.

2) "Fear of the Dark" by Iron Maiden

(0:00 to 0:52)
This one instantly springs to mind. It's one of maiden's all time classics. I have absolutely no idea how these geniuses can come up with such a catchy and yet mesmerizing riff. Imagine you're like sitting on the edge of a small pond at night, with the glistening water surrounding your feet, and you're looking up into the beautiful night sky with the moon shining brightly at you. That's just what the riff sounds and feels like. That's the image it portrays. Beautiful. Simply beautiful.

3) "Intro/Deathripper" by Munipal Waste

(0:00 to 0:44)
I think the band is only famous because of this single riff, seriously. Just this riff. The rest of the song ain't even worth listening to, no matter how much I try. But that said, this riff is really damn catchy. DAMN catchy. It's the type that once you hear to the first time, you jaw drops and you'd think, "What the holy smokes is this riff for real?!".

4) "Stand Ablaze" by In Flames

(3:01 to end)
Basically, two great riffs in this one. You have to wait for almost 3/4 of the song before they begin, but trust me, Damn sure worth the wait. In flames has so much brilliant and colourful riffs, but these two tops the lot. The first riff, when I heard for the first time, just sounds so pleasing and familiar, as if It was the prototype "Melodic/Catchy" riff. Following it is a more brutal yet equally appealling one. *Eargasm alert*!

5) "Transilvanian Hunger" by Darkthrone

(0:00 to 0:28 and repeated throughout the song)
Just a four note riff repeated twice and you get possibly the most famous black metal riff (besides freezing moon) ever. This riff by Darkthrone is so famous, only hearing it can it's greatness be justified. It's the epitome of something being so simple yet feeling so complex and out-of-this-world. There are some things in this world that cannot be explained adequately be mere human language, and this riff is a perfect example of that. You just FEEL, FEEL the riff. FEEL the emotion.

6) "Dies Irae" by Bathory

(2:22 to 3:38)
OH MY GOD. This song has been raping my eardrums for the past few days! What makes this riff so great is that it's so simple (just 3 notes) and yet so heavy and brutal! Also, the fact that it acts as a transition for what is initially a crazy demolition just adds on the brilliance of this riff. However, strictly speaking it is not very mainstream so most people won't get it unless you're really into the song.

So right now, these are the outstanding ones that automatically loops in my brain. Just listening through them while typing this post makes me feel much better already.

*Oh ya, must remind myself. I am in the midst of finishing TWO new songs. Lyrics are partially done, most of them during my travelling time today(must maximise time). One is the fast song, the other is a slow emo chinese number which I have high hopes for. If possible I'll try to upload by tomorrow, if not then as soon as possible. Things like these cannot be rushed!

I must treasure tonight! Last night in my comfortable bed before resuming service at you-know-where! Hence, I think it's time to go!

QOTD: As long as you don't mind, it don't matter.

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Book out days seem so short...

Seriously, this is already the end of the third day of my short break. It's really shuddering to think that I have to book in on tues night 1715 given that fact that I have not really utilised this break wisely. Most of the time wasted on sleep, slack, comp, walking around aimlessly, etc. Maybe this is normal bah. The very least, is that I got to catch a movie, hang out with friends, do up my uniform and even train my fitness (a bit). To sum it up, your "free time" now during civilian life is just like a short 5 min water break given during a whole afternoon's drill training under the scorching sun. It feels my whole world is shrouded by a dark mist that never permanently goes away.

Today was CNY, same old, same old. Gambling, catching up with cousins, eat, smile, stuff like that. Don't really have much to say about it, guys!

So far, from what I've heard from my friends and cousins, the worst in BMT life is yet to come. Guess I just have to go through them like a man.

So tomorrow is a MONDAY. It's the LAST full day I have left before I have to go back to the dreaded tekong...This emo feeling is really starting to overwhelm me. Let's just move on the the post lah. Will try to complete necessary stuff tomorrow.

• Go beach road sew on name tag
• Run a long-D (If aches heal), If not run a 2.4km timed.
• Polish boots
• Buy new clothes

Oh shit. Just realised I am only entitled to a few hours to complete all these. How? How? How? Let's see...(Conjures up a plan on my mind)

Anyone feels this blog is getting more and more borring? I do. It's becoming one of those "complaint" blogs which is totally not my aim man. Trust me guys, I'll fill this baby up with more interesting stuff in time to come. As long as you're still standing strong, I will not fall.

Mind you, I'm really shagged now. For absolutely no reason. I suspect though, it's the result of the mental and physical fatigue (sadly) gained during BMT. I'm feeling it's full force now, esp the lack of sleep. See, I'm back to the negative stuff again. Wow Lab, all the reasons to be emo and non at all to be positive.

Pardon my language, but I just want to say:

FUCK!

Feels better now.

Even when I was in tuition I've never felt this before.
Even when I was working I've never felt this before.
Even when I was working my ass off slimming down I've never felt this before.
Even when I saw all those freaking lovey dovey couples I've never felt this before.
Even when my close friends left me I've never felt this before.
Even at my lowest, I've never felt this before.

This is a new kind of low.

I admit, I've finally succumbed to the BMTC emo world.

Suddenly, yet so clearly, Mayhem's life eternal lyrics rings in my head-

"What will be left of me when I'm dead?
There was nothing when I live..."

QOTD: As long as one of them is staying strong, I will not fall.

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Tekong is a Chalet

Well, well look who's back? Yea, I've finally returned from my 9 days confinement in Tekong! As heard from one of my Company people, "Now I know why the army guys are so crazy about BOOKING OUT!". After hearing so much about BMTC from my buddies, I finally got to experience those stuff IRL. I'm not gonna reveal much, as there is some law by the govt that we cannot blog bout' army stuff so I'll just leave it at that.

Anw, these 9 days we've basically covered basic stuff like Water parade, diff variations of wearing uniform from pt kit to SBO, IPPT test, SOC (half), Route march, turnouts, stand by area/bed, rifle ceremony and technical handling etc. Also, we were the first batch to be introduced to the elearning stuff but I don't think I can post the details so yea.

Training wise, regimentation wise, I will say it's slack but this is still "Honeymoon" week so we'll see. (THIS IS THE FIRST TIME I'M FEELING SO MUCH PRESSURE TYPING A BLOG POST...CANNOT POST THIS CANNOT POST THAT =.=") As expected, we ran every single day, 5BX and other stuff like that, and there was the speed training which I already preped for. All I can say is I'm really glad that I preped for all these so that life inside was much easier. However, I'm not saying it's very carefree and easy inside. It's tough, but of a different kind. It's the freaking tens of kgs of stuff we have to bring around all the time. It's having to run and march with your whole body aching all the time. It's the unbearable lack of sleep that we suffered from. But after it's all said and done, I'm still here typing this post, and still feeling good.

So fitness wise, any changes? Yea, quite alot. Firstly, my weight maintained at around 64kg. Blame it one the huge portions of food in tekong. And the fact that it was rice, rice and more rice everyday. But from the surface, looking at my body it seems like I've lost some body fat so that's nice.

Then we come to IPPT.

Good and bad. Let's start off with the negatives first. MY SBJ ARH! SO SO SO JIA LAT. IT'S LIKE MY WORST STATION SINCE SECONDARY SCH DAYS AND EVEN NOW! I JUMPED A MEDIOCRE 216CM ONLY CAN YOU BELIEVE...SO PATHETIC SIA...

What's wrong with my legs? I just can't jump for goodness sake...I need 234cm for GOLD leh. So from that IPPT day onwards I decided to work hard on my SBJ liao...starting when I'm free.

Next we go to pull ups. I'm kinda emotionally neutral towards this. Why? Cos' I constantly did around 8 to 11 during training but only managed 6 for the real test. It's cos' of the aching muscles; everybody in my section did pathetically compared to their normal standards. I've seen many just do a pathetic ONE pull up with the rest no counts so that really speaks a lot about our muscle aches. Looking forward for the day I fully heal so that I can increase some more. To add on, one you go to army, you'll encounter all sorts of freaking monster that do pull ups like nothing. My platoon best was like 40 pull ups from a super fit guy and we were all like "...wtf?" This also serves as additional encouragement, and me being me will definitely use it to my advantage to improve.

Now for the good news. At least for me!

Firstly, my shuttle run. Always a enigmatic station to me. Sometimes I get a good timing, sometimes I don't. And I never prepare for it either. Most people don't. It's one of those "just do it" stations. This time, I managed a 10.00 flat, good enough for gold and I've finally got the stopping technique right. However, this timing is consider average and quite a fair amount of section mates got 9+ so I must aim to top that.

Last but MOSTLY, THE 2.4KM run. (Back from chat) I had no idea how I ran beyond my expectations. FAR beyond. Ok, take into account it was a shorter route, but still relatively I was considered fast. Got 10th place out of 62 platoon mates. Don't know official time yet, but the first guy was clocked at 8.44min, so we're looking at around 10min flat here. I'm still shocked. MY LAST FASTEST EVER WAS 11.04MIN AND I JUMPED FREAKING 60SECS? And the fact that I was running with intolerable muscle aches? Wow. Just wow. I must say though, I FELT I ran faster than ever before, and this result was directly attributed to one reason. One motivation. I will not say what it is here.

So in conclusion, I must say I'm pretty satisfied with my results (except SBJ) and now my PRIORITY IS IPPT GOLD WHICH IS WITHIN REACH. Jia you, Lab!

I'm gonna end here cos' I want to spend time to do other stuff. May complete a 10km run during these few days. Oh, and CNY is here so hope everyone's happy. Trying to catch up to my civilian life here...adjustments adjustment adjustments.

Oh, I left out something. Gonna put it super vaguely here. If you understand, you understand. If you don't, you don't. I don't know if it's the generation gap, of the culture differences, or just myself being unable to open up and doubting myself, or just my real side coming out, or whatever. I can't get along with them. It's just simple as that. And in doing so I'm losing a great chance to be able to achieve something that I want. Looking back, I'm just glad I've found my "brothers" already. That's all.

On a last note, THE TEKONG SUN IS SO HOT!

QOTD: Change is the only constant.

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Final Post before Enlistment

I'm pissed to say we already got off to a bad start today. Just woke up, and you know what time it is? 1pm. I've already wasted a few hours that I could have utilised properly. Now I've only left 9 hours before 10pm and time is running out. I have quite a lot of stuff to complete today like pack my bag, buy some stuff, cut hair, etc. I don't think I will even have time to lie on my bed and just listen to my music, something that I wanted to do before enlistment. Yes, tomorrow is the D-day. This will be my final post for a good whole 10 days or so before I come out. As I said I'm already physically and mentally preped so I hope everything goes well. Which leads me to...

Just a final update on my physical. Let's just assume that "ST61" carried over to today ok?
Final Stats:
Ht: 174cm
Wt: 61.7kg
BMI: 20.4
BF: ~10.5% (Lower abs still insignificant)
Best 2.4km timing: 11 min 04 secs
Highest no. of pull ups: 8 standard
STB: ?
Shuttle run: ?
Sit up: 42 ++

Overall, I am very satisfied with these numbers. However, I know I can still improve a lot, esp my 2.4km timing, pull ups and STB. That I will try to do in Army. Was thinking of cheating for today, but man, it's just ridiculous and not my style. My mentally has totally changed. I'm not a slave to junk food anymore.

As of now, I'm still waiting for the private moment to compose my song. Right now, it's just not working. If I can't complete by tonight, then just have to wait for the next time then.

Think I will go shave my head later with JK, so I've taken my final "mug shot" of me with hair for remembrance sake. Here it is!


That stupid "helpless-what-have-i-got-myself-into" look

Gah.

Was in the bus just now thinking of the things I'm gonna miss when I go in. I thought of stuff like American Idol, Burn notice, EPL, World Cup etc haha. Or my music...esp my black metal. But I have the one thing that I will indefinitely bring along with me and that is my Kvlt/Trve theory and that is all I need!

This would probably be a pretty boring place after my hiatus. So I decided to show a side of myself that most of you would never even think of. I am taking a huge risk by doing this as there is every chance that you guys will have a drastic change of impression on me. But hell, this is Lab you're talking about, and if you don't know by now, Lab don't give a shit bout' what other ppl think as long as he's trve to himself, even if it means being Kvlt. (sorry, not gonna do it, yet.)

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...Hey I'm back. It's 10.46pm now...I'm past my scheduled sleeping time but heck, I don't care. I've to finish this post. Went to cut botak with JK just now. Now we look like freaking rice bowls haha. Worse than that, I HAD TO FREAKING SHAVE OFF MY LAN JIAO MAO GOATEE...this is where I felt heart pain ar...sian...

The no. 1 cut:

No comments about this cut. No hair, no comments.

Let me just finish what I have to say.

Suddenly when I was outside just now, I felt super emo for the first time in a looooong time. This is the kind of sadness that cannot be cured by anything. And listening to Jay Chou songs just made me feel worse. I will get through this.

Also, I have to post my "List" that I written on Oct whilst mugging for 'A's. Since I've no scanner, here is a word for word copy and pasted version.

After A lvl, Stuff to do/complete...

1. Learn Drums (Postponed to post army). Cost? Worth it? Which brand etc. Maybe ask Lincoln if his guitar place got teach
2. Earn $. Apply for food expo? I want IT show. Events? Promoter? Highly unlikely to work F&B or long term. Not enough time.
   
3. Money. Financial matters. No.1 priority is new specs (got it). Budget $200. Target date to buy is first week of December. From now to Dec 36 days. 200/36=need save $6 a day. Get a good pair so u dont regret...Get a new mp3 player. Ipod touch? Go army still got use? Worth it? Ask some pros...if buy, its around $500 I think for 32GB? Contacts. (post army)
4. Fucking corpse paint. Buy all the stuff. Foundation, brush, paint. Research first. Take pic. Visit black metal gig?
5. Phase 2 of your body restucturing. Phase 1 was the epic "ST65" which you have accomplished. Now phase 2, what will it be called...Target: Build chest, cut to 10% BF, six pack. *Changed to maintain.

Conclusion
2 months. I don't know the future. What will happen in these 2 months? I'd like to know, as I write now, for my future self, on around end of Jan, anywhere, looking at this and smiling. (If I make it alive, that is)
-> How will my relationship with CH and the rest be like? Honestly? Better.
-> Forbidden
-> Did I really attain nice pecs and abs? half half
-> Any soccer glory? not really, +ve is nvr lost touch.
-> Any new friends? Love? Hate? Yes&No.
*-> WILL I STILL BE LISTENING TO BLACK? IS IT STILL DEFINING ME? (Kvlt/Trve theory-23/11/09) (Ingrained in my blood, babey)
-> Any past people I'll meet, and befriend? Surprises? Hmm, no?
-> Will I tio a huge injury? YES. Fuck...
-> Will I even go further, more extreme? Cut myself? Piercing?
-> Will any life changing event happen to me, and change my way of thinking, and stop me listening to metal? Heng. Nope.
-> Get into a fight? Nope.
-> Will anyone I know die? Nope.
-> Will I get into trouble with the law? Nope.
-> Feelings about A lvl? Army? (All I fear is loss of freedom, nothing else)

Frankly if after 2 months, or any amt of time, for that matter, as long as * holds true, nothing else matters (pun Metallica).

That's basically it. Call it a checklist, if you will.

Next, let's move on to my song! Good news and bad news. Good news is, I've uploaded it on youtube and it's ready for viewing. Bad news though, is that its only the intro riff. However, let this be just a sneak preview for better things to come, ya?

Hope you enjoy!

Basically, I have posted all that I wanted before I go in. *Ps. Just found out I left out swimming goggles. This is what last min work does to you, kids. I'm pretty much screwed now, I don't know where to get them. Heck. I don't care, act blur live longer lor...

My final words? Emm...yea, I've trained a lot of this, prep and ready to go, let's see...mixed emotions man, keeping kvlt and trve will be my key to survival...ya...guess this is my final transition from a GINA (Small kid) to MAN! GINA to MAN! I'll see you when I book out!

QOTD:
Into battle, we ride with Gods by our side
We're strong, and not afraid to die
We have a lust to kill
And our thirst for blood to be fulfilled
We fight till' the end!
And send our enemies straight to HELL!
-"Into Battle" by Ensiferum

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The Untitled Post

I am experiencing a spectrum of contrasting emotions now. Just so many things are unfolding so quickly that I've not been able to catch a breather to slow things down. I guess it's just normal since I've accomplished so much in these two months. Just less than 40 hours and will be going to Tekong. The reality had just seeped into my central system and I must say I'm kinda of taken aback. Stay Kvlt and Trve Lab, that's all you need. Always remember Death's lyrics:

"I will not feed your hunger,
Instead, I BITE THE PAIN!
Looking not back but forward,
I BITE DOWN."

These few days were just spent doing last minute shopping for Army stuff, spending precious time with friends, hogging the laptop to enjoy as much as possible, song writing, training fitness, etc. Completed my 4th 6.3km reservoir run this morning, with CH and JK this time. Ya, I'm such a freaking Miss fickle-minded. If you read my previous posts about running long-D, you'd understand. One thing that never fails to intrigue me is how the hell can a overweight person with 21% body fat run so fast? What's the freaking logic behind this? Yes, CH I'm talking bout' you.

Looking ahead and positively, there's STILL at least 20 hours for me to use properly. Seeing that my first song AT LEAST had some, even if just a meager amount of recognition, I am quite motivated to post another song. I've been thinking, which song from my repertoire should I publitize* next? Should it be another slow emo song? But I'll be seen as a one trick pony! Should I showcase the fast and happy one? But the guitar riff can only be hummed out!?

*Publicize + Advertize = Publitize

Somehow, I have a bad feeling the next song I post will garner disappointing results. Maybe I just too ignorant to the fact that I'm not as good a composer as I think I am? Pride can be a really annoying factor, really. But after much pondering, I just came to the realisation than as long as I keep on supplying good material and keeping faith in my abilities, in the long run I will succeed. Too ambitious maybe? At least I would have kept trve to myself and not regretted. That's the most important thing.

So after much consideration, I've decided to present another slow emo song. That's all I can say now, cos' I've not even completed the song melody, much less the lyrics and structure. Can I do it in this limited amount of time? Don't really know. Less talk, more action, better start soon.

...Six hours later.

Just finished watching "Army Daze" which I stumbled across on youtube. Damn funny haha! This particular part is seriously LMAO (From 6.13 to 6.35)

"...And the he was trying to make me C** (hand movement) ...I mean come out of the basket!!!" WTF haha..

And folks, as I posted, there's just too many stuff happening that is smoke screening me from coming up with a proper title for today's post. Think of one and it seems inappropriate. Think of another but it just don't sum up my day properly. So for the first time in a long time, I'm out of ideas. Hence this post is aptly titled, "The untitled post". =/

Tml's gonna be a long day!

WOTD: Ambivalent

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