Just like a rifle without it's bolt carrier and bullets. The potential within it is unquestioned, and when the parts are assembled together, this 'toy' turns into an invincible weapon. We just have to find our 'bolt carrier' and 'bullets' to fulfill our potential... -Your's Truly

Friday, April 30, 2010

Don't Assume Anything

I'm such an idiot lol. I was so looking forward to THURS night book out, thinking tt friday was off in lieu for labour day. Didn't happen! So this week was seemingly longer than normal, which was pretty mindfking, you noe. DON'T ASSUME next time.

I'm back to JC!

Yup, that's right. Only that this JC is called MP command. Srsly, the things we do there, the schedule is almost identical to JC life. Mostly, it's lecture from dust till dawn, eat, eat, eat, and a bit of physical. Life's good...and interesting. As I slowly understand more bout' MP, I realise this voc is really "Multi Purpose" man. Covers everything from drills to policing to conventional stuff. I should learn to appreciate tt I'm lucky enough to get in.

Ranting time. Had ATP and IPPT this week. "Almost" means SHIT when it comes to ATP la. So what if I "almost" tio 29/36? A lot of other ppl did. But fact is I wasn't concentrating enough. And mother luck wasn't on my side. $200 bucks...flew away. =.=. Then IPPT. Start to drop that dumb mindset that you're ALMOST GOLD man! This is your ultimate weakness! You keep on thinking tt you're physical is ALMOST good enough for GOLD, and assume tt your 2.4km will hit 9.44 if you push enough. No chance man. FACT = you are not GOLD standard yet. You are living in your own fantasy world. You're just a HIGH SILVER now, but GOLD is not within your touch yet. So either you do something, or you'll never get the GOLD you so desire.

Week 2 has passed, slowly the bunkmates are learning more bout each other. And so am I. Truly, I sense tt these are a good bunch of guys to hang out with, and even felt part of the group. However, my ears are sharp, and when I heard what they said behind my back, and their rigid behavior towards me, I began to ponder otherwise. Hmm... But, after the dumb experience in BMT, I believe tt it's still better not to make any enemies, as life will be very tough since I have to go through 8 more weeks with them. So, the only way not to make enemies is to make friends with them. The situation is not as drastic as it sounds, just that I think too much all the time. But I am slowly learning to drop my guard. Let's see what happens after a few more weeks. Should be interesting.

Ytd night, went to have supper at henderson market. Slowly waited for de YTF stall to open...and just talk cok to pass time. IMO, everything bout' de YTF stall SUCKS except it's food, which is brilliant. Service like shit, waiting time, CRAZY QUEUE,...etc. BUT for the sake of the best YTF in town, it's worth it. We cheonged a hell lot of food which added up to $25. Crazy! Lets see some pix and we'll realise how much we ordered. But it was proportionate, since we have 5 monsters to gobble all of it up.



Dig in!

Look at the size of that.

Phew, managed to finish it.

Last but not least, I am going to post a photo to show you what I am all about. If you don't believe I am this kind of person, believe it now. (Though this doesn't really prove much and I can go further, but I don't care since it is already out of the norm)


Fk the dumb pose and the ugly shirt...my first corpse paint attempt WORKED.

Sunday, April 25, 2010

Facebook = Motivation

You gotta train harder. Become stronger. Better. Faster. Can't believe how much cutting botak can change ppl's appearance. When you see their FB photos, you can't believe they are actually that kind of ppl. Eg clubbers, pimps. And you understand why they act dao or arrogant in camp. True as the saying goes, never judge a book by its cover. Now that everyone is exposed in their very RAW and genuine self, at least physically, I realised how fucking ugly they are compared to when they have hair. What the FK?! All the fats, all the pimples, all that CRAP. EXPOSED. I've learnt something today. Ha. ha. ha. What a difference. Use this as motivation to bust ur ass more, and sculp that lean 8% body out. You must do it, why? Cos' they are not as good as you think they are. Feed on this fact. You can actually be better than them. KVLT/TRVE...

Saturday, April 24, 2010

Roti Prata Routine

...happens every Sunday morning! Well, it has become so since my army days cos' I just enjoy a quiet Sunday morning reading the news and having some Prata. It's really enjoyable and relaxing, you all should try it, instead of going out all the time.

What a week it has been. First and foremost, I shall talk abt Thursday. Somehow, it just so happened that in my new section, my buddy, had the exact same birthday as me! What are the odds? And somemore he is 1990 de. I guess we are really "Brothers" eh? But that's not the main thing. So what happened was, he was Platoon IC so everyone supposedly knows him. Somehow, my crazy section ppl (who are REALLY a bit psycho) found out his Bday and decided to prank his ass! Could you imagine the string of emotions running through my veins when I heard tt? I was like, "...the hell? OMG today MY Bday too! Should I reveal to them? No, I'll kena also! But hey, nobody will send you wishes and it'll be quite sad! Just tong together with my buddy?" All this while, nobody knew it was my Bday also. So as I quietly listened to their manicical plans, I began to cringe even more. To the point where it was enough, and I told myself, "Nope, not worth it to reveal my Bday for this level of Prank or Blanket Party or whatever." I mean, I don't even know these guys! So I decided, quietly, I'll join in the fun. And boy, was it FUN! LOL! Thinking of it now still makes me laugh. Yea, bit of guilt also, I mean, my fking buddy kena all de crap, and not only did I not (suffer tog with him) help him, but I joined in in messing him up too! WORST, I even told him, "Eh buddy, I tried to help you...but...the odds were really against you." Damn it, Lab, you're screwed up, LOL. So what the whole section did was tie him up, mess him up, took his shirt off, dirtied his ass etc etc. What the hell, in the end he really looked like crap man! Everyone laughed their ass off! Times like these make you wonder, "Should you laugh at or pity him?" Haha...but wasted, no photos taken. However to the best of my ability, this is a rough pix of what became of him after:

Wow. Srsly, THAT could have been me also. *Cringes*

...But, it was all in the name of good fun. At least, he had a LONG shower after that!

Ok, I ain't gonna talk more bout' my MP life, cos' in any angle I talk bout' it, and the things we do there, it will only lead to one word: SLACK. Nope, no joke. MP command is one of, if not THE most Xin Nang Vocations around. Not just that, it's Xin Nang, but it's unfairly prestigious also. Who else gets to wear the TAILOR MADE (yes, really.) No. 3 uniform? Which other MAN gets to don the elusive No. 1 uniform AND Pickcap for NDP which spells GLORY? Which other MAN gets the POWER to impose on higher ranks, even commanders? Which other MAN is so feared and respected? No one else but MP Command. Yes, that's the truth, if you hate your Voc, I can only say, life sucks, suck thumb.

Ai, slack is slack, but the physical trainings are really XIONG de, OK?

If the past week was adjustment week, then this week will definitely not be. In fact, it's more like Midterm week. Guess what we're having on this week? ATP. ROUTE MARCH. IPPT. This week alone. What?! It's only like, week TWO? Bah. But won't complain, as we will bookout on Thurs Night. Why? FRIDAY LABOUR DAY HOLIDAY LO. So this week will be fast and furious...and nervous. I hate range la...I always fail...in BMT I didn't get marksman. I've really acquire a fear for firearms now. Just..detest range so much. Zzz...I'm not even gonna aim for the marksman + $200 bucks tml...just hope I pass so as not to OOC can le...Pray hard. RM, 4km, ok la, no kick. IPPT, still, it's the same old story. Will aim for GOLD, but must see if my "Best Friend" called SBJ allows me to. So much activities. Walao, I'm starting to take back my words liao. MP command is NOT SLACK after all! IT' S XIIIIIOOOOOONNNNGGGGG!!!

Tuesday, April 20, 2010

MP Command; first thoughts.

Given a NO now...and it's second day only. Its true as they say, being a Military Policeman has its privileges. If I look at things positively, then I should really count my lucky stars for being posted to MP cos' it's really gonna be a good life. Even the commanders say so.

Speaking bout' commanders, lucky man, most of them not too xiong or wad. Had a good heartfelt talk with one of my WO, and he give me a lot of precious advice for my future. Made me realise it doesn't matter if I take the longer route to get to what I want and need, cos' ultimately, I AM STILL YOUNG. Never stop learning! I will take his words seriously, after this course I should start working on my future already.

And BTW, I think, I need to temporarily cut this BULK. This project. Yea, I know, I've not really even started yet. But some events and the process of my MP journey will, IMHO, require me to STAY as my physique now. It's good enough. That will be the stand as of now. But realistically speaking, I might re-start it after this course cos' then I'll have more time and freedom to control matters. Yup. That's the conclusion.

Alright, this post is short n sweet enuf. I only have ard an hour left before I have to leave for camp again. HENG my camp is in the west, comparatively near my house. Ok, shall end now...CANT WAIT FOR FRIDAY BOOK OUT!

QOTD: PRIDE, DISCIPLINE, HONOUR!

Sunday, April 18, 2010

Block Leave's over -- Back to Serving

T.T. I am feeling that feeling AGAIN. That EMO feeling...what else? It's times like this that I realise how much I need my freedom in order to be happy. But forget it, the very least, I get to book into my new unit tml morning instead of NOW. Phew...

Downloading lots of songs now, so that they'll accompany me towards this next phase of my Army training. Music is de best ok, whenever you traverse to uncharted, unknown territory, hearing some familiar music just makes you feel better.

WHY is everyone using facebook? Facebook is like the most superficial social site ever, yet it can reveal so much about a person's life...Funny. I use Facebook too, but only for the sole purpose of checking on people. If you know me, I'm not active, heck, I don't even have a single photo uploaded! To me, FB is good and bad. Good cos' it can provide lots of entertainment, whether you playing your farmville or wadever, or checking on your crush, you'd agree wholeheartedly it does de job, for that entertainment aspect. But really, FB is just a popularity contest! You see, if you go visit someone's profile, esp ppl you don't really know you will check out his or her profile and stuff, you know, see how their doing. Deep down, what people truly want is a FB account littered with THOUSANDS of photos and THOUSANDS more friends. Only then is it "complete". Only then are they popular. So it is very easy to gauge how a person is doing by just looking at their no. of friends, photos, wall, etc. Of course, that's not to say a person with 1000 friends and photos is super popular and doing fantasically well in their life now. You gotta differentiate the real stuff from the fake, ok? That is for another day. You know, sometimes, I see people's FB with no friends, little updates...nobody even bother to say happy birthday to them. HOW PATHETIC, I mean, how the heck can they live with such a pathetic account, which inferentially meant their life SUCKED? Can you imagine you log in everyday to FB and other ppl are updating all the cool photos and wall stuff etc and you're just logging in for the sake of logging in, and feeling like a complete loser just succumbing to the peer pressure of everyone using FB. I don't understand people like that! It's like your trying to show how pathetic your life is to the world! WHAT?! If you don't have a social life just fking don't use FB la? For me, I will never use an actual FB unless I have got the strong enough social circle and life to make sure that my FB is littered with THOUSANDS of photos and THOUSANDS more friends. But then again, I might find myself on the "fake" side.

Ah jesus, speaking of FB...I forgot to do SOMETHING! DAMn...*Head slumps to the keyboard*.

Fmmmm...I want to watch Crossing Hennessey(For the Chio Bu lead actress only) ! Have to spend $$$ la...can't find online. I want to watch "Until the light takes us" also!!!!! No, I NEED to watch that! Argh...where? How? When? Argh...

Recently, that question started to pop up in my mind more often that ever. *Will I ever stop listening to Metal?*

Fuck you, Lab. Never. And now's not the time for that. Don't crumble. You are on the verge. Don't. Stay. Stay. Stay.

QOTD: I'm not a good person. Does that make me evil?

Saturday, April 17, 2010

Beginnings

"...but I have a good feeling about MP command leh. I want to go MP command! People say its slack, haha. Besides, I'm from NPCC bkgrd so MP is something I can relate to la. Actually MP stuff are not bad, quite interesting. It's already 99% confirmed that I get into MP MAN if I don't tio sispec." -Taken from Kvlt/Trve blog post sometime in April.

What a pathetic shit la! Sometimes I really think I damn contradicting man. Just a week ago I was so hoping to get posted to MP then now I'm complaining as if someone stole my collection of Horrible Science. Ok but that time I thought MP COMMAND actually meant "Commander in MP" but didn't realise Military Police was, essentially known as MP Command. Aiya Dumb me...

Just get over it la, whatever is done is done. Seems like this batch, a lot of shocking and unexpected postings, ie supposedly going to command sch guys end up in units, so I guess that might cheer me up a bit. I don't know if it's really possible to still be 3SG, but if theres a chance, I will aim for it, i guess.

But then, MP command seems so fun. Basic MP course is only 9 weeks, then learn all the seemingly fun stuff. Best part is no more SOC (presumably), no more RM, no more conventional shit hahaha, well except for the 3D2N outfield which is once only so doesn't matter. Ok, now I will just focus on this 2 months of new stuffs and forget about the past le.

----***SUDDEN THOUGHT THAT ZIPPED PAST MY MIND***----
MAN UTD WON HAHA SUCKERS LAST MIN DOWN YOUR THROAT HOW BOUT THAT CITEH? SCHOLES!!!!

Edit: And Chelski LOST! HAHA!


...my mind is going blank. Oh, it's 1.51am le. Brain is already fighting the Z-monster...

Ok...so...sayona...

I shuld go n...

zzz...

QOTD: ...zz..zz..zzz


Friday, April 16, 2010

Am I a Failure?

Right now, all that is in my mind is FUCK EEESSSS--@@@---EEEEFFFF la. I am going to state on true fact and that is they only take your ACADEMICS as a SERIOUS deciding factor on whether you go Command School. This society is that realistic. No good A lvl/diploma = no commandership for U! I'm a prime example la. Why did I try so hard for BMT? Why? Just to make sure I don't FAIL in army just like I failed in my studies. But why, why must they take STUDIES into consideration even in ARMY? Look, people I know of personally did worse then me in BMT, ie just passed IPPT and fail SOC and they got into SCS. And only cos' their A lvls got straight 'A's. I burnt my ass trying so hard for SITEST and got silver for IPPT, and people were saying like, "ooo cfm get into sispec at least" and WAD THE FUCK I kena posted to be a MAN. FUCK LA, I'LL SHOW YOU THAT YOU HAVE FKING WASTED A TALENT.

YAY, I failed in JC, failed in A lvls and now come to Army, I still fail.

Please, if you told me to look at the brighter side, you know your just kidding us. Ya, I know, MP is like, hard to get in, slack, easy life still draw combat pay...etc..But if I ask you in your face. If I asked anyone who had the pride and dignity to represent himself as a TRUE MAN, a REAL MAN, "Do you want to be a commander or just a MAN?", WHAT do you think his answer would be? Obviously he would want to be a proud, respected, commander with power, status and all the glory, instead of merely becoming a MAN, right?

...How pathetic. Can I imagine, after end of two yrs, the highest rank I'll attain is just a Corporal. Doesn't get anymore demoralising than this, does it?

What can I do, but just, like the Army taught us. SUCK THUMB lor.

I guess this post is worthy to be a strong candidate for "FML entry of the YEAR!"

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"Project Metal Monster"

Coming along fine...re-started self cooking again. Good start, i guess. So now I'm posted to MP, guess I'll have more time for this project!

I have thought long and hard. Not that long and hard anyway.

I want to be RASH now, and do RASH things.

TIME to consume some supplements. Bring it on!

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Watched part of WMXXVI today. WTF has Wrestlemania turned into a JOKE? From the looks of things really seems like it. No fking JIM ROSS announcing? Taken over by the JOKE michael cole? His commentary SUCKS TO THE CORE LOL! Taker-Michaels Part 2 was...in truth, blunt and disappointing. They shouldn't have done it. Compare this for last yr's match, this just flunks epicly. And I hate the fact that MC keeps billing it as "...the most anticipated match in Wrestlemania history!!!" FUCK YOU MC. The Rock-Austin WM17 was THE most anticipated match in Wrestlemania history, OK? Dumbass.

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Gah. Feels so sucky now. Well, at least I DONT HAVE TO BOOK IN IN SMART 4 ON MONDAY CHEERS TO THAT YEA!
*Edit: Fk, I read wrong. I HAVE to book in in Smart 4 on Mon. Fail~~~~~~~

QOTD: And it's not easy, to be me...

 
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